It Takes a Special Kind of Nerd…

When I was little, I had no problem being a nerd, but I was more concerned with being a girl. I was all about Barbies, but took note when toy makers also created female action figures for popular cartoons including G.I. Joe and The Transformers. I liked the boy’s toys too, but felt obligated to show my support for the gals. Once high school rolled around, I became increasingly concerned with defining myself as “cool” and trying to figure out what that meant. One thing was for sure, I could only divulge my deep love of Star Trek to people I really trusted. I found myself in a paradox. Show my true self and find myself surrounded by socially inept (and kind of greasy) nerds, or hang with the cool kids. I opted for the cools kids. Naturally, because I was trying too hard, the cool kids never really got on board the Kristen Train and I ended up befriending all the nerds anyway. At the time, I didn’t fully understand how to enjoy the best of both worlds or for that matter, I didn’t quite comprehend that I was actually enjoying the best of both worlds. The strange thing is, the cool kids didn’t get me and the nerds all wanted to marry me. As you can imagine, I spent a good deal of time trying to figure it all out. Mostly, I attempted to be an artist and that (in itself) meant not really cultivating a great deal of lasting relationships. I was also highly dramatic and moody. That didn’t help socially, but it made me a good Goth.

After High School, I realized that I loved being a nerd and a Goth. I also found that there were more nerds in the Goth scene than I thought and felt like I could finally be myself. Bringing up topics such as computers, video games, classic cartoons, and Star Trek lead to meeting some fascinating people and I was surprised at the reaction. Into my 20′s, I celebrated my nerddom and totally embraced it. Besides, it never hurt being one of only a few females at Comic Book or Sci-Fi conventions. Of course, now, that’s not the case. Those things are filthy with cute girls.

While I have long since been a card carrying nerd past the point of no return, I think it takes a special kind of dork to take things to a new level. And so I have. Last night, mostly because I was tired and couldn’t validate going to bed early, I sat at my computer, hunted down footage and created an homage to the Obama Victory speech at Grant Park…Star Wars style.

For your approval, disapproval, and entertainment, I present a video montage of Obama clipped together to the tune of the Ewok Return of the Jedi “Yub Nub” song. Geeks will appreciate the usage of the original Ewok song and newbies will enjoy the inclusion of the newer Jedi finale. Do note, I could have used better footage, but I stole most of it.

Enjoy.

Giving Props

It’s a brand new day! Today I’ve been feeling the love and reveling in the fact that I have witnessed and took part in history. I’m still in a bit of shock.

Amidst the joy and hope, I am however saddened that Prop 8 – banning California gays to marry – passed. It’s funny to think that California is ready for a Black president, but aren’t ready for gay people to marry. It bothers me for many reasons, including the fact that my own sister now has to wait to see how things turn out. I also have friends that will be directly impacted by this. Yes, this awful and unfair proposition will be fought in the courts and I hope that it gets overturned in a timely manner. In the meantime, it’s strange to think that California is still intolerant enough to pass an actual civil rights ban and prohibit people who love each other from legally sharing their lives together. I guess I can take solace in the fact that it was nearly a 50% split, meaning that only half the state are bigots.

My joy turns to sadness turns to happiness as I’ve also found out that Prop 2 passed, which means factory farm animals must now be confined HUMANELY allowing them to move about freely in their cages. As a long time vegetarian (almost vegan) this is something I’ve wished for – for a long time. No more being squished together, no more being unable to move to the point that their little legs atrophy. This is a phenomenal step in the right direction towards animals rights. At the moment, nothing can be done about how the animals are killed, but knowing that their short lives are made just a little better gives me hope. It says something about us as a society, how we treat our animals. It’s been a long time coming and I’m glad. Animals suffer so very much on their way to your table, it’s time we finally give them the respect they deserve. It would be better if you didn’t eat them at all, but whatever…you make your own choice. I’ve made mine and I stick by it now 17 years.

This adds a new level of confusion. Animals now have more rights than gays. How does that compute? It boggles the mind, but it does show some form of progress and I’m happy for that. Prop 8 must be overturned. It has to.

Hooray for Obama, boo for Prop 8, and yay for Prop 2. Wow. People are taking baby steps, but I feel like we’re on our way. I feel confident that things will only get better from here. Perhaps once the Obama high wears off, I’ll return my normal, cynical self. Until then, I’m rather cheerful and optimistic.

Yes We Did!

Barack Obama was just announced as The President. We are overjoyed! I can’t tell you how amazing this feels. I am at a loss for words. In this historic moment, I am so thrilled to have been a part of it. This changes everything. Prepare yourself for a new world.

I grew up hearing stories about historic moments and people saying they remembered where they were when certain things happened. I will always remember that today, AJB and I started early. I didn’t want to wake up, but I began to think about Barack and how on the day his beloved Grandmother died, he got up and rallied for the win. If he could do it, I could. Sure, I complained a little, but once I got my coffee, I was good. Today was an easy day. AJB did most of the walking and he walked his ass off. I drove and did some, but today, I was at my end. After 4 days in Vegas, I felt like we’d done all we could and was ready to take a nap and watch CNN. We quit around noon and came back to the hotel. Our eyes glued to the TV, fretting that perhaps we could have done more. Did we do enough?

There was also the added bonus of feeling shunned by the lead Vegas Obama group. Last night, they asked us to show up, but once we got there, they didn’t need or want our help. Their main staffer, Nick, apparently has some sort of hero-complex. Can’t talk, saving the world, he seemed to say when he couldn’t be bothered to look up from his laptop. Even though we’ve been here since Friday night, we never really stuck with one group long enough to grow a relationship. That being the case, with every new group, they got the impression we’d just showed up and we were made to feel like lightweights. It just didn’t feel like we were appreciated for our hard work and sacrifice. It wasn’t a nice feeling and we were really bummed out about it. We talked ourselves up and told ourselves that even though the Obamateers didn’t give us a ticker-tape parade, we knew what we did here and how hard we tried. It made us feel marginally better.

The truth is, we don’t need a ticker tape parade or heavy accolades, but some thanks would have been nice. And then, after stressing out all day, Obama was elected president and McCain conceded. All at once, none of that mattered and everything we dreamed about, the walking, the calls, the nagging, it all paid off. I am overwhelmed with emotion and can hardly believe that we made it. It’s thrilling and scary all at the same time. Now what? We watched Obama greet the nation as our new Commander-in-Chief and it felt like a dream. Could it be that this country has finally woken up and in my life time, we’ve dared to dream, we worked for this, we all came together, and we made it happen? Wow. Yes, we did.

I’ve already written a lot, but I feel like I should say more. I can’t think of what else to say. This is it. It’s all over, but it’s only just begun. I imagine my new friend Stephanie and her son were celebrating like AJB and I were. What a happy day. I really think this country is ready to move forward.

I should also point out that I am so terribly proud of the awesome effort made by AJB. He has been dedicated the entire time, never wavering, giving his all, worrying, loving Obama more than me, checking the polls before breakfast, and hoping for a better country for his children to live in. I am so proud of him and I am honored to be here with him. Without him, this trip to Vegas wouldn’t be possible and I wouldn’t have been able to invest this level of commitment to the campaign. And this was a great learning experience for us both and I look forward to doing more of this kind of work in the future. I know now what to expect and with AJB by my side, I know it’s possible. I kind of feel like anything is possible now. The future is so bright, I gotta wear shades. Will Wheaton said today that he feels like he got his country back. It feels true and right.

Heading? Second star to the right and straight on til morning.

Day Three: Phone Banking

Day Three in Nevada. Last night I got a small reminder that I’m actually in a Las Vegas hotel. I lost 12 dollars on nickle slots and we had dinner in a fancy Chinese restaurant at Mandalay Bay. And then I crashed. Total and utter crash. Sleep. Zonk.

This morning, I awoke more tired than I’ve been in a long time. Not really feeling like going out again, I slumped over on the hotel room couch and waited to see if I could get up enough inertia. And then AJB and I talked a bit. This isn’t a vacation. He’s also got work to do and we decided that we’d stay in this morning, he’d work and I’d do some phone banking. Excellent idea.

Now, I’ve never done phone banking, so I was a little hesitant and nervous. Here’s how it works: You visit my.barackobama.com and set up an account. All the information you need is right there in an easy to use format. They give you a list of people to call along with a short script. It takes a few calls to get the hang of it, but once you do, it’s actually really easy. Not to mention, since it’s Monday, most people are at work and all you do is leave a quick message. You can use their script or make up your own. I chose to inform voters about the importance of this election and let them know they need to get out there, but also to be prepared for the long lines and take a book, water, and a folding chair. I think it went pretty well and I feel pretty good about it. I got 40 calls done.

So, if you want to help, phone banking is the easiest way to get the message across. It takes very little time. You do as much or as little as you can. You’ll pay the phone bill next month, but it’s the least you can do to help get Obama into office. If we all pull together, we can do it, we can really move this country into a new and brighter future. Can you imagine? Living in a country where government actually cares about it’s people and provides the fundamental assistance we all require? School, health care, care for the environment, etc? No, it won’t all get better overnight and the truth is, Obama is just a start. I honestly believe that it takes more than electing one man into office. Like during WWII, we all have to work together and make this country better. We won’t have it handed to us and she shouldn’t expect that. We’re Americans. We’re all about the “can do” attitude. We invented the phrase “git er dun”. So let’s do it! Git er dun!

AJB and I will be heading back out to help however we can this afternoon. If it means hitting the streets again or filing papers. Whatever it takes. Tomorrow’s the big day. There is also a chance we’ll be hanging door signs at 6am and then hanging out at the polls to make sure people stay in line. Apparently, the lines are going to be outrageous this year. Nevada is a tough state and has the lowest percentage of volunteerism in the country – which makes sense considering Las Vegas is a town fueled by greed, decadence, and selfishness. They need all the help they can get.

I just heard that Barack’s grandma died today. I can’t tell you how sad this makes me. I’ve lost several grandparents in recent years and I know how hard it is. To lose someone so important on the eve of the election. I mean, wow. It’s so heartbreaking. Just a day away from winning the election (’cause he will, you know). I’d heard that she was sick and I hoped she would make it so see him elected. I don’t think anyone from the Obama campaign reads this, but I would like to express my deep sorrow and condolences for the family. Perhaps Grandma is watching over him now. He’s speaking tonight. How hard must it be to keep going on after a tragedy like this? My thoughts are with the Obama family today.

Canvassing: Day Two

We started a little later today than yesterday. We lagged. No Obama rally. We also had to switch rooms…not sure why. We got to our canvassing coordination place around noon. I think. We got our orders and headed out to our neighborhood. Once we got there, we were immediately made aware that this neighborhood wasn’t as well off as the one we had yesterday. In fact, not at all well off. This was the kind of neighborhood where you would likely see a car parked in the front yard hoisted up by cinder blocks. Here we found a diverse community of various ethnicities. The common threads were uncared for yards, dilapidated (but modest) homes, bars on the windows and doors, gates guarding the front door, no doorbells, and 9 out of 10 “Beware of Dog” signs. Yet everyone had dogs. Big dogs, little dogs, all barking like mad.

Today was really depressing. Depressing because not only did this neighborhood remind me of where I grew up, but the people there were really bad off. They’re all just trying to survive and hardly any of them are living. One house we stopped at, a friendly old man opened the door and asked us in. It was obvious he had some form of Alzheimer’s disease, totally unaware that you’re not supposed to invite strangers into the house. A youngish woman came to the door and asked the old man to step aside. A couple of rug rats ran to the door. This woman looked overwhelmed and you could read it in her eyes. Her husband, the name on our list, was at work and here she was caring for a forgetful old father and two rambunctious kids. She said it wasn’t a good time and asked us to come back later.

At another house, a withdrawn, stalker-type answered the door and said nary a word. We attempted to talk to him and at least find out if he was voting and for whom. Nothing. OK. So we started back down the drive way. “You thirtsy?”, he said as we walked. We didn’t quite hear him, so he said it again, asking us if we wanted to come in and get something to drink. RUN AWAY!!! “No thanks,” we replied and headed out. This sounds funnier than it was. He was actually really creepy and I dare not think about what might have happened if I’d gone alone. I might not be here writing this. Seriously. AJB and I joked that he had a gimp in the back room or girls tied up in his bedroom, but you know what? You never know about people and he totally had that vibe about him. Shudder.

One guy opened the door and chastised us for interrupting him during the football game. When he saw our Obama pins, he slammed the door. Several other houses slammed their doors in our faces. At a nice looking and well kept home, their 3 dogs started barking at us and began brawling with one another. We could hear the owner shouting at them until he finally came over, kicked one of the dogs really hard in the side and beat him with BBQ tongs. Then he walked away. The girl on our list, came out, told us she was voting for Obama and we left. I couldn’t wait to leave. What an asshole. If you know anything about me, it’s that I absolutely hate animal abusers. Poorly trained dogs should not be mistreated for their owner’s shortcomings. In fact, unruly dogs are a direct result of no training and abuse. I wished I’d kept their address so I could call Animal Control and report him. Fucker.

Roger, a 60-something man talked to us, but hadn’t voted since the 60′s. When we asked him how he thought government could do better, he said he didn’t care. We investigated further and asked him what he cared about. Nothing. He’d managed to take care of himself all those years, never got sick, and didn’t need government. He just didn’t care, he said. He wouldn’t vote. No way, no how. We asked if he cared what happened to his kids. Nope. They didn’t come visit him. This old codger lived alone, didn’t talk to his kids, and didn’t care one bit about the election. It didn’t matter and he was adamant about it. I imagine he has a lonely, bitter life. I just can’t fathom that. It’s not that he doesn’t know about the election, it’s that he couldn’t give a shit. I also sensed that he was a drinker and I believe he’s got reason. What a sad life he leads. When we asked him if he might consider voting to help other Americans who cared and need Obama, he declined. He stated that if he could take care of himself all these years without government, so should everyone else. I suppose government has nothing to do with the streets he lives on, the school he went to as a child, the unions he belongs to, his social security, the TV he watches, the registration of his vehicle, or any other unimportant facet of his life. I guess some people really are lost causes. At least, for our purposes today.

The most heart wrenching family was a middle aged woman and her 18 year old son. Their’s was the only house on our entire list that had any sort of pro-Obama signage in their yard or on their car. A homemade “Obama 2008″ sign was propped up rather sadly on their dirt and gravel front yard. Written by hand in washable ink, the words “Go Obama” on their car. When we got to the door, Stephanie was happy to see us and called her son over because she knew he’d be happy to see us too. They love Obama and will vote for him on Tuesday. We had some extra lawn signs and bumper stickers in the car, so I asked them if they wanted one of each. Their faces lit up as if this tiny gesture had made their day. As AJB ran back to the car, since they were so enthusiastic about Obama, I asked if they might be interested in volunteering the final days. Stephanie told me of her struggles and how life has been more than hard since she was diagnosed with breast cancer and her husband ran out when she started chemo. She told me about how they were trying to get the house in order and clear out junk, but were having a hard time of it. We made jokes about some of her stoner neighbors. We both agreed that Obama can’t cure all ills, but if he makes things just little better, it’s a step in the right direction. What a pleasant woman. I was really touched by her plight and was once again reminded why I’m out here. I can’t imagine what it like’s to be in her shoes, raising a son, fighting cancer, and just trying to make it day to day, but still having hope. And hope is what she had…and what she gave me. Her enthusiasm and good nature were like a shining beacon of light in that dreary neighborhood.

When you hear Obama talk about the people he meets, you feel for them, but you don’t know them. Today I met one of those people and I’m so much better for it. We said our goodbyes, but as I turned down the drive-way, I broke into tears. I cried because this woman has it rough, but remains optimistic. I cried because I know what it’s like to watch someone die from cancer and what chemo does to the body. I cried because Barack Obama has honestly made a difference in this country. Win or lose, he’s already changed this country for the better. We have something we didn’t have a year ago: Hope.

Canvassing: Day One

Today was a grueling exercise towards my own personal journey in democracy. We awoke before the sun was up. I was tired from the night before. We attended the Criss Angel “Believe” after-party and while Cirque du Soleil after parties are usually pretty great, this one was lacking somehow. Mostly, it’s because I was tired, but also there weren’t a lot of celebs and people didn’t seem to be having the best time ever. Not to mention, there weren’t a lot of things for me to eat (vegetarian and all) and I kind of loathe Criss Angel. We called it and early night, but I still didn’t get as much sleep as I needed.

Early rise, shower, Starbucks. We drove out to Coronado High School to see Barack Obama speak. It was a good sized crowd and we ended up on the main floor about 30 feet from the podium, crunched between supporters and fans. During the entire hour and a half wait, I was pulled, pushed, moved, and annoyed. We were standing in direct sun light and I was dying. Crowded and exhausted. So yeah, you can imagine I was pretty cranky.

Barack was half an hour late. At first, I wasn’t all that into it because I was in a general state of annoyance and I figured he’d simply reiterate his boiler-plate speech – which he did, but after a few moments, I started to feel the energy in the crowd and was reminded why I’d driven all the way to Nevada to help get him into office.

Afterward, we hung out and waited for the crowd to subside before we met up with our canvassing group. We got to our group and waited some more. At long last, we were given our orders and packets with information about where we were going and who we would be talking to. The point of canvassing at this stage in the game isn’t to sway voters to Obama’s side, but to get people already supporting Obama to get out and vote. You’d be amazed that even though they support Obama, they aren’t necessarily voting; for whatever reason.

AJB and I covered 45 houses today. 11 were McCain supporters and 15 were for Obama. The rest weren’t home (more like, pretended they weren’t) or declined to say who they intend to vote for. Overall, the people we talked to were nice, however, one thing we noted was that McCain supporters definitely weren’t as nice as Obama supporters. Another canvasser called them “curt”, which I think is a fair description. The neighborhood we walked was a mixed bag of multi-ethnic, middle class families. From what I gather. We handed out voter information for the area as well as information on how Obama intends to help the middle class.

Needless to say, this is grunt work. It’s hard, you walk a lot, and your feet pay the price. At the end of our trek, I had a nice chat with a man who supported Obama, but didn’t intend to vote. I stated the case and conveyed the importance of this historic election. At the end, I think I might have actually convinced him to take some time off work and vote. Wow. That felt really good. He shook my hand and thanked me for my time. I won’t know for sure if he actually shows up to the polls, but knowing that he went from a “no” to a “maybe” because of me…well, that’s why I’m here.

Back at the hotel, we’re exhausted and hungry. We’ll be back out there again tomorrow. I feel more confident and prepared. Today was nice, I watched AJB do his thing and figured out my own angle. I like the idea of people talking to people, one on one. It makes this election that much more personal.

Pictures from today’s Obama rally in Henderson, NV.